Loneliness.
Life is starting to get really bored in camp. Matthew has ORD and in 46 days time, Frank too is going to be relief from service in 46 working days time. Life is going to be really boring in camp soon.

Last Friday, it was Texas last day in my unit. He is going to be posted out to somewhere else. Guess life is really going to be hard after this good officer leaves. In camp, there aren't really hardworking officer around and less to mention helping me out. There are a lot of works supposing to be handled by those officers but “lucky” me who got chosen to clear the shit out of the toilet bowl.

There are just so many changes in camp for the past few months. Those people that were so helpful had all resign else were all posted out. Guess, it really doesn't pay to be nice.
Sigh~

No doubt that I learned a lot during the past year of service in camp but i feels that I am really underpaid and without recognition. I surely hope that after the efforts I put in my work, I will at least get promoted to a Finance Specialist. In fact, the workload I dealt with are those of the officers job scope.

I being a LCP (Lan Jiao Peng) doesn't really hold a lot of authority in camp but thankfully my boss is kind of hold some authority in camp which makes work a lot easier. I can't really imagine even he doesn't hold much authority then I’m a goner for sure.

Last Friday, the biggest shot in camp actually had a little chat with me. Thanks to God’s grace. I was asked to collect something on behalf of my boss from him. While waiting, BIG SHOT asked me into his office and asked me to introduce myself. He hadn't really met me before but was aware of my job scope. We had a short chat for about 5-10mins in his office pertaining to my workload in camp and my family.

I have always heard about BIG SHOT being a friendly guy but haven't really seen it myself until last Friday. He is really a nice and friendly man. Most importantly, he recognises the effort we put in our work. Thanks GOD for the recognition HE induced in BIG SHOT.

I surely hope that's things will work out well for me in camp for another >365 working days.

Well, it have been raining so much these few days. Raining is good, it's a blessing from GOD. How I wish I am 15yrs old, where I can just forget everything happening around me and be in the rain. Teenagers playing in the rain surely doesn't attract that much attention compare to an adult. Getting old means having privilleges taken away from you. =(

I really dun know how to handle my life now. Somehow I really felt that my freedom is taken away from me since I enlisted. I really wish to get my life back. Yesterday is Matthew ROD date, can really see from there that he is extremely happy to regain his freedom. Serving have made me feel like a bird lock up in the cage. No matter how hard I tried, I can't get out of liability but to unwillingly concede to fate. Sadly, I am left with no choice but to look on the brighter side of life.


*10months and 18 days to FREEDOM.